"The girl" comes out

"The girl" attends Brown University (freshman) and I am so proud of her.

A few weeks ago on a weekly visit she looked distraught (I knew something was wrong).
Well you can always tell something is wrong when they ask questions like "Mom, how much do you love me?" and "Mom, you love me no matter what right?"
In my line of business having a child on the Autism spectrum one needs to remain calm (At all times!!)
"I would love you no matter what" I responded and then the tears started. Did I mention we were in a supermarket?

To be honest I started thinking the worst; did she get kicked out of school, is she doing drugs OMG what is going on (the brain went in overdrive).
Then I heard "Mom, I'm Bi! Ok she's bisexual what is the BIG secret she's keeping from me? Oh wait WHAT???
This is why you're crying uncontrollably in the store and me starting to have an anxiety attack? Her body wracked from sobbing and I hugged my girl for what seemed like an eternity!

"So you're "bi" wuptidoo" I replied. The look on her face was priceless. "There's more" she said, "I kissed a girl at a party". Well if that's the worst thing you've done then we are all good. Her tears mind you were tears of joy, I can only imagine what she was going through in trying to plan the perfect conversation.

I have never been one to think inside the box, my life is chaotic and I love it. Don't get me wrong remember my motto "Life is Good".  I've never had the perfect life but I made my life today is!
I've realized over the years that having a child with Autism and being a single parent enables you to roll with the good, the bad and the ugly!  We have our awesome days and our not so awesome days, there are times I feel like driving and just never looking back- but then where would I go?

I love both my kids with such ferocity it scares me sometimes, they are indeed after all what I live for.
I explained to "the girl" that I have family and friends that are lesbians, gay and bisexual; I also have friend that are asexual. I have never looked at them any differently. That also goes for her! We have an amazing relationship which has deepened since she went off to college, she is my best friend, my rock, my world. She is still that innocent baby I had 18 years ago, she is such a sweet, compassionate soul it broke my heart thinking that she had this "secret" and was afraid to tell me. She corrected me however; "I wasn't afraid mom", "I was trying to figure it all out". How I love this child!

How lucky can a mom be, I have two perfect "special" kids.